New classroom-bad image

Today is the last day we stay at class 4A. We will move to Wisma Tiong Hua after recess. i feel nothing about that. However, after i move the chair to the new classroom i damn hate that building. The class is at the forth floor-top floor. From the entrance of school till my class it was a tiring walk. Thats alright, just accept it as a exercise every morning. When i stepped in the classroom, i put my beg down, and looked around. What? No fan above my seat? The worst is no WINDOW near my seat. Never mind, is my fate. i was so boring after settle the classroom. i stand at corridor and i saw few pairs of bird pass by. At the same time, her image and her message appear in my mind. i hope i can jump down from there.
The bad luck still follow me like a chewing gum under your shoe. How hard you want to get ride of it, it is a impossible task. my relationship with her went down the hill as time pass by. She said i am changing and she not like it. Thats the reason she not talk to me much. Guys... What changes i have make? Stop speaking rude word? That is her advise before this. Please don't say that changes is i become more friendly with other girls. If it like this i will happy, at least you will jealous. Please tell me what had i change that you not like. i will change back. lastly, as the time pass by, all things will change, the only things that doesn't change is my heart. I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU!!!

Double character.

This few days, i found out that i am a double character human. So, next time i cant write as myself, it should be myselves. lol. You guys must wondering how i know i am double character. i changed mentally again this few days. For the last few years i start to stop killing mosquito. However i killed few of them in this few days. Impossible i will give them a slap if i didn't change. Besides, boys like me will definitely look at girls. As for myself, i can sure that i am not flower hearted. However, i came to a change. i still love MY as all know. For my other character, i am still loving her from the depth of my heart. Some of you might know her. Every time came to the changes for character, i became confuse. Who am i loving? Both? Maybe. But the changes came faster and faster. Few month a change and now, i will change at any moment.
Damn hate myself now!!!!!!!!!!! But i won't suicide myselves.

Anything around me??

After the first time i feel the bad luck is stick with me for a long time, i went through the process of self changing. It was well in the progress as i told you guys in the previous post. i though i pass the test, however, i think it came back for me again with purpose.
But why i am always the target? Why it won"t go for others? Just like my mom keep annoying me and the sound pollution form the opposite shop. You guys must just logically know what is sound pollution. Write out a essay is such a hard task as you guys seldom will face. Want to have the feel? Come my house at night, before the shop close. Every time i wanna start study, concert is open opposite house.
This morning, i was totally went mad. i get angry again. The worst thing is the person i scold is a girl. Just like usual, my heart start to get painful after i get angry. Whole things happen was like u driving fast and a cat walk across the road. When u hit the brake, the car didn't slow down and hit the cat and continue the journey. i was the same. i was controlling my temper but it was uncontrollable.
"Last time u r quite gentlemen de, but now? Getting worst". This was extract from a lovely girl message. i almost faint when i saw this. After ask advice from Tian, i know i was totally wrong.
No matter what happen, i should not scold a girl so loud in front of so many person. i appologize on the next day. i become more sad when i saw a post in one of the forum i visit. Title is 10 reason why girls love a boy. One of the reason is, able to control his temper and not always get angry. Oh my GOD! What have i done? One big wrong step for my lovely future. Maybe because of this, all my effort is useless.
Now, i want to tell 'u' that i wont scare 'u' as i face u once not long ago. i believe that i will win this game. If 'u' still wanna continue play with me. 'u' will be lose. i won't scare because i can't see 'u'....

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My blog was once again abandon by me for few days. Although it was only few days, many things around had make me having conflict in my heart.
Firstly, i wanna make some correction about my last post. The whole second paragraph was writing about my dream. So please don't confuse about that Tian.
Secondly, i wanna share my latest experience of making changes on myself. After i can control rude word from coming out of my mouth, i now trying to bring myself back to the world of study, world of hardworking. However, not everything will run as smooth as we think. Yesterday, i start to do revision after i had my lunch till time of dinner. i very satisfy with my revision. After dinner, Fung came my house to do Add math till 10pm. My mom was just asking me go take my bath again and again. Normally, i can play my with my dear com after school till 10pm and nothing will happen. But why? Why i going to make better change for myself and i face so many obstacle. For example, i called for bath after i came back from tuition.
Tian really think a lot as lss say just now during tuition(after reading his blog). lol.. Anyway, as a friend i will always mentally support you as i facing financial problem.
Thats all for today. i need to stop for bath. If not, tomorrow you guys can see my face at the news paper. Hope you guys happy forever...